Maybe a Little Uninspired

December 12 – Body Integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)

No, the answer to this question is just a straight up "no". Some people are aware and in their body all the time. Some manage a brain body integration without effort. I'm a head person. I'm up in my head thinking and letting myself torture my body. Which is not to say I'm a klutz, I'm really not at all. Since I went from a job standing all the time to a job where I spend a fair amount of time sitting on my ass my body has pretty much been in constant pain. My back is begging for a million visits to the chiropractor and yoga sessions. My flexibility is gone. So what did I do about it? Nothing. I'm tired and I am in pain and I just want some fucking sleep. It's so easy to exercise when I already feel good, but once I start feeling like crap, it's just frustrating to not be as good at things as I used to be. This is another one of those things I'm hoping will change with my new getting to sleep at night schedule. But just in case I continued to be unable to motivate myself, I went ahead and signed up for ballet this coming semester. It's only once a week, but I gotta start somewhere.

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December 13 – Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

New job! I start my new job tomorrow. I get to sleep at night and I'll be working more in the foster care system instead of alcohol and drug counseling. I'm really hoping this is going to improve my mental and physical well being and give me more experience in what I hope will be my future field. I don't really have a lot to say other than that. Like I've said before, I've been pretty good towards making active changes towards where I want my life to be this year.

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December 14 – Appreciate. What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)

Oh my goodness, sleep. No, really. I've never been a very good sleeper, but I've always been someone that could function on 4 or 5 hours. That is not true when those 4 or 5 hours are during the day. A solid night's sleep on my days off is one of the things I've really really learned to appreciate this year.

But on a more serious note, friendships. With the work and school schedule I've had for a lot of this year, I've barely seen or talked to most of my friends. I really miss having time to just hang out, relax, laugh, sympathize, talk and listen.

I'm not really sure how I express gratitude for my friendships. It's probably something I should do more often. I just try to be a good friend, a reliable friend and to cook people pure deliciousness.